The las day of november and autumn.
The las day of november and autumn.
If you live in Stockholm area, community, come along to Grävsta kollektiv Julmarknad! :)
And nothing is better than knowing and feeling you are where you were supposed to be. That you’re at the right place and time. I have not felt this state of mind with myself many years, there always was anxiety that something told that Im not there…Keep searching. Go. And feeling that pain of finally wanting to arrive at that place… And now, another day or morning, or evening, when I lift up my thumb along of one of the roads in Sweden, I feel this beautiful peaceful energy and hear the voice that says ‘you’re on the right path, believe me, believe in yourself.’
-a letter which made me to cry, and finally not because of him, to whom I have wasted my energy, my tears, my state of mind(yes, that pathetic it is, im still healing my broken heart). a long time lightened tear, clean cry-baby-moment.-
Hi Eleina! I have wanted to write for a long time now, but have not figured out how to express myself. I want to thank you for getting to meet you . After the end of the journey to X/Y, i started thinking and did it for several days. How you traveled around and experiencing new things in a country with a new language. Met new people and got to know them. That you did not have much solid routines but took things as it came. As when and were you would sleep if you have not got anyone to hitchhike with, or when you would eat food. And I started thinking a lot about what I wanted to do in life and how I could get more out of it and i still does.How you could get in the car and affect me more than anyone else has ever done in such a short time. It takes courage, strength and willingness to do what you do and it inspired me a lot. I saw that you wrote on your facebook that you thought that everyone else seemed to live interesting lives and that they should not ask about your boring life. take a look in the mirror you’re one of them intresting people:)
I hope to see you some day in the future and you are always welcome to Z.
Arrived at home for Pernilla’s 40th birthday! Amazing! Endless pizza night!:)
Even it’s the most boring hitchhike route I can take, but every time something happens that inspires and surprises, and gives beautiful insights, stories and moments… today I surprised myself how patience and positive I stayed after thinking “that’s it no Stockholm today, let’s go back to Malmö”(skåne/malmö/ ALWAYS gives me hard time to leave… but as soon as I pass helsingborg, different vibe and energy arrives…).
But… I’m here in Gräfsta, with whole family (even Karlbergfamily!) And wonderful neighbours baking homemade pizzas, wine and cheese, laughing and hugs, music and dancing. Good to be back home, but also missing skåne already where ive been baking cakes and cookies, haha.
My disco hair for Ellen’s Molnio party. Had to hitchhike looking like poodle from Malmö up to Södertälje län, hihi.
Hitchhiked to the secret spot in Skåne.
/that day when I had those strangely amazing rides!/
About my first driver.
1) Took my A1&A2 Swedish level exam today. Passed. I mean hitchhiked a driver who “jag prata inte engelska”.
In the late night at the destination. summarize.
2) In the morning I sat by malmö hitchhiking spot with cup of coffee. not even by the road yet. looking on the road and cars, thinking my today’s route. then poof red car stops before i begin hitchhike. nice,lets go. at the next stop, i’m walking to the spot where a car is already waiting for me. at today’s next stop suddenly THREE cars stops at one time and I feel awkward…which to CHOOSE. Now I get to choose… Just what what what? Passing those two cars I didnt get to meet, I waved, “hello and sorry, next time!” face language. Today was some kind of bizzare hitchhiking energy, cars already there to jump in.
This happens often, but more like that out of 5 stops one driver is like this, not that at every stop..It seemed like I dont need to hitchhike, I just walk on the road and POOF make the car stop. Like a queen haha
And 27.11.2013. This was actually very, very great meeting. Conversation… mindblowing. And he was going to Denmark airport, and I begin to think of my friend Sara. And arriving at the ‘destination’, I accidently had to go to the other wifi spot, and there I accidently met this friend Sara I was thinking of! I hadnt seen her for few months, and she is my most inspiring amazing meeting in Sweden, and I felt so happy seeing her.. but yeah… :)
3) When leaving the car, driver goes “good luck, I hope I’ll hear your name and you’ll change the world” , oh dear that’s a heavy mission on my shoulders. got picked up in seconds because “you’re mad standing here, get in the car asap!”- hihihihi
I’m also sorry. I even cant and coudnt get job as barista in the UK, Latvia and Sweden. I only get volunteer positions. In UK - not enough expierence, in Latvia - sadly but secretly they asked me if I know russian (no), and in Sweden - it’s funny here, then they say ‘no, its fine without swedish’, but when I apply then ‘no, only swedish,sorry’. When I was 18 I really thought I will have a normal student-youth time having all these rubbish temporary jobs, not it just gets ridiculous, you gotta go to barista school to be able to serve coffee. but how to pay for barista school if dont give a job? And then here we go we youth are lazy. Really? I dont think any other generation has achieved so much as us with unpaid jobs building and creating all nonprofitorganisations, events, festivals,workshop spaces, etc, etc… yes, we are so lazy.
I meet them, I hear them, and I prefer to listen, ask questions, and when they ask question to me, I pretend I didnt hear, so I ask again my question (and sometimes I actually can get a little bit overprotective ony because ‘cmon dont ask about me, i want to hear you!’). Because I feel I am boring.
My only talent is to hitchhike, and my only interest is ‘Living life’, and my name when I introduce myself isnt even my real. This weekend at the 24h event camp on that ‘intro’ note under my photo it was written: hitchhike-eleina-life (about-name-interest). and today my flower-crown gave me a headache of wearing it. I cant have kids in the future, because I am not a good example, haha.
But the best part of my life or the way I live is that I meet all these inspiring, interesting, strange(good way) personalities and wonderful strong, powerful characters, and so they make me to smile about ‘wow, life is beautiful’, they live such interesting lifes or just the way they are, think……. and then I am just happy to follow the flow and see who else am I going to meet? I am still hanging around Sweden, getting to know it from inside as ‘hitchhiking foreigner’(sometimes i go through my low moods as well).. Well, I am very lucky and happy to find ‘this’ Sweden I have.. och jag älskar Sverige varje dag mer och mer.
Currently I identify myself as hitchhiking nomad (capturing and documenting the culture of Sweden). I prefer to not be from somewhere. And as it is noticed I am not from Sweden. Secretly in my mind I am buzzing with ideas how to bring together Nordic countries more - Scandinavia&Baltic, through exchange& culture, social change. But let’s see if it’s truly my mission.
I have a naive dream - I want to change the world somehow - and… I am feeling I am getting closer and closer to know how I will change it , if I don’t breakdown by my broken heart. Stay focused - I remind myself.
I am on a path of heart, finding my mission in this life.
I knew I am not so much as hippie, hehe.
Since I hitchhiked from Lund, Ive been :
A wine night + massive breakfast morning in Järna, and open hearted conversations. Couzy days in Stockholm baking chocolate chip cookies and having waffles for breakfast with my beautiful Janice and her wonderful dog Roxberg. A trip to Uppsala where my two sisters made ‘Introduction xmas evening swede style’ and of course beautiful peaceful, funny days with my “family” at Grävsta, where I celebrated 18.11. cooking Latvian-type meal.
Now, I am packing again, and off on the road tomorrow for another time in Malmö, where I am attending that “24h Innovation camp” (Connectors Malmö).
That’s my life.
People ask me - how do I live? Do I work? Have money?
I live like nomad, no, I don’t work, I wish I had some financial earning, but swede job industry still hasn’t accepted me, I am still living on the road.
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On a day like this it is important to remember the ‘symbols&signs’ which has created us.
It’s almost like Christmas in here… sofia has been creating atmosphere whole evening