“The past can’t be changed, the future can only be contemplated, but the present is malleable, and it’s up to each of us to make the most of it.”
There’s constant incessant anxiety out there. Not talking about putin shmutin, and politics. but all the time between everyone. war has never ever been finished. this entire world is one huge war. dont need guns to have war. vegans schmegans against meat-ers, races maces, latvians russians, male female, bad weed good weed, drugs no drugs, alcohol free alcoholics and party people, what is beautiful and ugly, yes education shit education, money schmoney, city vs countryside, buy your food grow your food, car vs cycle, smoking kills smoking fun, gay no gay, etc and etc and more, and more, and lots of more or everything. we just keep fighting allllllllllllllllllll the time. there’s no discussion, it doesnt exist, we assume it’s discussion, but we jsut keep fighting , proving one another is wrong, this is the only and right way, no, your way is bad,
because it consists more fats in your food, eat vegetarian, eat grass it’s good, you choose to be gay you are not born gay yes you are born lets let them be (like what are they some disease?), what’s wrong with your face? what is that on you? this colour looks bad on you - maybe according your eye sight. this is beautiful but this is shit, no, maybe opposite, how do you know what is beautiful? do you think you really see, maybe you have pink naive glasses on? there’s only yoga and finding yourself in india?what? really? wtf? the only way how to show you’re good person is you white one help africa? what? how can you not like chocolate? how can you not like this and that? what’s your problem, why i cant cant like something? why i cant go to sleep early if i wish? why i cant do things good for myself so I keep myself in balance that I am nice to you, if you will teach me I should not do things I know help me to be calm, then just wait to see me out of balance and then you will realize you dont like to know me. Constantly we do this to each other all the time, and I am tired of this that have to explain yourself all the time why do you do what you feel to do. and then no acceptance, but fight back because no, i know better. we fucking know all the time better than each other, and me too, look at this , me writting i know better we should fucking stop being like this.
personally i just want to live on this planet this life how i feel to… just stop fighting. the war we know where guns are used only comes from this ‘proof’ war we constantly let to happen…
I wish to meet someone clear, clean. A pure soul, clean soul. No enlgithened spirituality, without pretense mask in this cursed world, on this cursed planet…
Cleaning my backpack I found a lot these tiny thingies in my bag which kind of are representing ‘one’ way of thinking,right. If you ask my belief. I don’t have one, I’m all that more than written religion, I’m hippie geek Hindu Mindu latvian shmatvian hipster mopster who dresses like loser as my brother is embarrassed of me when I wear whatever I find, and mum is forcing me to get new pants because it has holes… (I think it’s money waste). I am so tired of that people like to have these few keywords which are so of ‘who you are’. Can we stop judging each other. Can we just enjoy each others company for just being here and now together.
(According to who I am to people, I should have dreds because it is cool if you travel as backpacker and enjoy higher world than material. I should never use make up, never eat meat, and do only yoga and be talking about meditations. And try every herbal and human made drug because that’s what everyone does. In fact, I dont like drinking, one half beer is sometimes is fine, I will eat meat if served when you know where it comes from, I enjoy cycling and walking as my yoga, I meditate loud when hitchhike and sometimes I get out of balance, so, what, I dont like to do anything with my outlook as sometimes get new colourful fabric and flower crown, i like big comfy jumpers and broken shoes, because i feel sad for still good shoe to be worn but according to fashion it should be thrown out, i use makeup because i am shy of my skin issues, i destroy my eyes wearing contact lenses, i sometimes eat too much so i gain weight but i dont care, yes, i look bad and i become anti self confident because people judge me by my look and i still give a shit because people can be nasty in words, but then whatever. ill never be good for anyone, except for myself, and those few beautiful souls i meet in my life, but for the rest of people - never. there’s a big group of people who has the power somehow to judge everyone who is not like them. speaking about it - i hear already what my relatives talk about me (not family) and less I care, more sorry I feel for them.) they say things without even getting to understand me or know me…and not just them, but half of my facebook “friends”, it is just how it is.)
Forget questions such as where you from, what do you do for living and age! It all does not matter, it is more interesting to get to know the person not the status. these answers comes out naturally and then the story sounds more interesting than when we force it to each other. isnt it?
At the first months of living in Sweden last year, I spent a lot around people who knowsw so much about nature…
So, this is one of the best things I ‘learnt’. This gardener nightmare, evil weed with very powerful roots… People are trying to kill it, they hate it, but what they don’t know of course is that it is not just evil powerful, but opposite! It’s very, very good for your body health.
Of course, I didn’t know too, and I remember how I was taught it is bad plant. But I dont know why - as child I found it fascinating plant. I liked to ‘cut’ it because of it’s smell… And when I was told about this wonderful weed as food, then I could understand why I liked this weed since Im young, I probably sensed it’s good, just lack of knowldege or understanding that outside of garden food there are more edible plants!:)
English: Ground elder.
I coudn’t find a good link on explenation of this amazing weed magical power. But I will share some paragraph…
The leaves of the plant can be used as a foodstuff and are best collected when young and before the plant has come into flower (after that point the leaves become strongly laxative!). They can be used raw or cooked and have an unusual tangy, rather aromatic, flavour — a little like dandelion without the sharpness; on the way to sorrel without the lemony-ness. This plant is definitely and acquired taste and most who try the plant do not like it at the first taste. Most simply, the leaves can be cooked as a spinach but young leaves can also be used in salads, soups and stocks. The young shoots make a very acceptable substitute for spinach. It is still commonly used as a potherb in Scandinavia and is used as a vegetable in Latvia and Russia.
Well, if you are from this region - Scandinavia, Baltics, Russa - go out in your garden and pick up it! There are many various ways of eating it, but the one we did most of time during time living on farm - using the new leaves for soups, sauces, salads… And can pick up them sooo much and put in bags/boxes and in the freezer! Best way to keep them is to froze. Because they grow back very fast and you can make huge saving for autumn/winter! :)
Stockholm – Riga. Saturday night on the ferry.
I must admit it was one hella long or maybe even a short ride being alone in 4 bedroom room which cost only 30 euros (I was singing to myself and dancing around, and enjoying I have my OWN room,haha). As usually I am when I am travelling via consumer society institution – I just found a spot in a café by the window, had my notebook/diary and laptop with me, so, warmed up the chair for some hours until I got phone call from my sugarplum and could go back to the room, fingers crossing I have no roommates… What a relief it was I found only my bag there! Literally, cloth off, long so long shower, cheesy music on and…
Actually, it was a thoughtful process, as going back to Riga after a year being gone, living the path of heart, thinking about whys and wtfs, and the reasons, and the beginning and is there a finish yet?, and insightful understand of why these challenges, and the recent events, and this world, these people in my life now, this vision, this entering different unknown but inside deeply known, just acceptance of it. Ahh. And so on and so on.
I hope that the next time period which will be a time described as being in present time, later becoming my past time, or that present time which is past and now together in one, I will think through and feel for me the right way of how to say thank you for all these lessons. How to react thankfully. Just simply – I could stay rough and sour and become that old lady in the bus who’s mean and yelling at everyone. It is easy to hate the world and myself, but instead - I want to be that nice old lady who talks to these young students and lets them think afterwards ‘that was a strange lady, but very nice’. I’ve met them too! They come as angels in my life at strange moments and make me smile. And I want to be like them when I grow up. To get there, I don’t have to block myself out from the world and go meditate some certain way of meditation, no (I am mentioning it because I had booked a course), I have made my own ways of being with myself. That I hope I find to be thankful for my experience and let it go all what still holds me to be stuck. I stayed awaken half night writing a long story about all what matters or all what has and had happened, just to get out all. Now with all that information I have written I could make a chapter from each paragraph… Haha.
But now I am feeling, I think I will enter a new book, plans and ideas are happening, building up… Just it is me, myself and I who needs to prepare for new challenges, and be grateful for all what has happened, and be happy I am still naïve and pure without hate (just spontaneous anger,hehe).
Hejdå! På väg till Riga! / On my way to Riga! / Ceļā uz Rīgu !
Havent been there for a year!
3 day journey: Leaving Umeå after sunset, arriving after sunrise in Stockholm, Saturday afternoon before sunset off to Riga.
Before getting on the boat I already made a ‘new friend’. This person is Italian Colombian, speaks italian, spanish, french, russian, english and german, and learning swedish and latvian… Boom! And is on the move a lot. I think I need to start looking for bilingual education, learn three languages in a year!
I’ve been in Umeå for some time now, but feels as two days only. Had planned to do so much but ended up doing nothing from all that.
Now Im going back to Stockholm. And then in couple of days, next week im in Riga…. Duties to do with Give&Get festival (chekc out here, and come this summer! https://www.facebook.com/pages/GiveGet-Open-air-Friendly-Workshop-Festival/112109812218453 ) and of course family, family, fmaily time….
I’m tired. Since 2013 february Ive been away, but in April returned back for two weeks, now it has been A YEAR since Ive been in Latvia… Will be strange., uh!
Being around a lot people who are without standard lifepath of finacial support. I see a lot the ugly truth, that always and often those who have never had a lot finacial support, are more generous, and always find the last coin in the pocket or under the bed to share with. But those from background of never been givers only takers in past, in present time having more income than before, are still not givers, still want to keep the last with them and will stare in your mouth when you eat their food, which they have politely offered to you just to make appearence of being kind.
I have a friend who is used so much in this way. And I tell this friend this, to open eyes to see what the friends are doing. ANd this friend just says ‘well, yes, everyone is like that, what can do.’ Can do a lot! Firstly tell it! Secondly teach some respect. Thirdly, stop letting it. The wage difference is 3 times more. And these ‘richer’ always complains about no money and so uses my friend to eat out food frim his fridge, and never give back or buy anything next time. And these people call themselves as ‘love is one’ people, they dont give a crap, their hippie statements are full of ego, no freedom in there. Hypocrites. Sadly.
I’m 25 this year. So, no worries :D
Despite Umeå city trying to be modern and be culture capital city in 2014, the atmosphere here feels a lot like being in a small town in Latvia. (When you cross the borders of Riga, you’re thrown back in the past). Umeå feels is not ‘growing/changing/becoming modern’ as the rest of Sweden big cities. Here you still here ABBA on the bus, still have those huge computer screens in the library, not somany famous chain-coffee shops, and etc, etc.
It’s nice! It’s kind of interesting to notice this slow “development”, but by powerful politician tries to modernize this place, it looks like a cartoon story…
Also one another fact, Umeå living is not cheaper. A year ago I was already ‘warned’ that North is more expensive, but I didn’t understand, I thought it is opposite. Now I’ve been here in February and in April, that I noticed it. Malmö is really, really good for Swedes who wants to live cheaply, that’s the best place also for foreigner students. But I wonder how these so many beggars survive in Umeå? In Malmö there are beggars too, but not so many on one corner as here! Where they shop their food for the money IF they get it on the streets?
In Malmö the dumpster takes it’s winning path! And then they clean the city after drunk students throwing beer cans around…And then there are these small food shops run by they call immigrants… Cheap, cheap, cheap! (Even for my pocket) And few more “easier” ways how to be a beggar in Malmö. BUT HERE? I have noooo idea! I have told about the dumpster dive situation here, few years ago it was killed. So, I bet Umeå has the most garbage food as every shop has those crazy alarms on their bins… Police will catch you even if you are going to try to explain you just wanted to throw your napkin… So many beggars up here, less in south. Hardcores? I’m sure I am missing some interesting fact why they are here more, but from my side the picture I see, Im surprised how they survive here, where for my invisible money pocket it’s almost impossible to survive. I noticed that ICA and COOP here has at least 10-20kr prices higher than south.
Maybe we should invent two year exchange program Från Malmö till Umeå! Malmö folks could come up here and teach how to live happier, easier, cheaper, hehe. Or just students need those cafes, places, workshop areas, etc like it is in Malmö… (Yes, I love Malmö! I will love Stockholm when I’m rich haha)
Malmö - Stockholm - Umeå.
First photo sunrise in Lund on Monday morning. Last one, sunset near by Sundsvall on Tuesday.
Two hectic days. But this is what I wrote on Tuesday, shortly before arriving in Umeå:
This two day hitchhike… just across Sweden, according to experienced emotion roller coast, I feel it has been a week long journey. Now I’m in sj train riding for free, kind of. Mistakes happens. But every time when I felt I’m let down with this mass society, these mean people at these worst villages I’ve ever been… being close to give up, an angel was sent to me. I’ll never forget this beautiful mormor, who drove extra and was hugging me and didn’t want me to let go. This crazy Serbian driver giving me best Swedish practise (I’ve passed level 2!) , driving around extra. I got his number, he’s around Järna too. And short moment of our funniest conversation: “How many children you have? I don’t know, I also have been around Sweden hehe”.
And also this man who’s name I don’t know but his daughter Sabina lives in Järna. Was the best talker and listener, and fed my soul and belly. and last but not least… Funniest bus driver, after his shift drove around sundsvall just to show me his city! Last this kind man letting me to be on train….
People in mass upsets me. Today I’ve seen so much ugliness but every time after my tears about their meanness, these outstanding personas showed up to remind me to not give up.
These two days have been huge challenge. I felt I’m doing an exam at hitchhiking university or something….
I’ll sleep forever or till weekend now.
Good bye. Goodnight.
"There’s Sun behind clouds" for sure.
I have said Goodbye to Malmö, now Im in Umeå.
When you meet someone new, dont ask at first second "Where are you from?"
What do you mean by the question? Do you mean where I was born? Where I grew up? Where I went to high school or where I went to university? Or where I am spending my present time?
What is this question for? Want to hear my life story at first minute? But we just met.
Oh, you are from Latvia. So, why you are here? Uhm, who are you? Is this some kind of job interview?
I’m like, isnt it a bit too personal? Does it help you to get to know me?
I never understand and wont either.
The best meetings I have had with NO questions like this just to keep the conversation floating or developing into basic conversation. There are still a lot people and drivers Ive met on the road, who has stayed in my mind but we didnt exchange our names. Or not even knowing the place where you’re from was important for our conversation. This basic comes up. Later, but why at first? Dont you want to meet me, as person, character, see my colours, hear my thoughts, feel my vibes? Dont we want to exchange with this beautiful meeting? No, we want to know straight away stereotypical facts of each other. Nice!
I am from another planet, but just spending my vacation on planet Earth, and sorry apearrntly I come from some land which got some silly borders because that’s how the world should be run. I come from a land by the side of the Baltic Sea, the geographic coordinates are 57°00’N latitude and 25°00’E longitude. I grow up walking barefoot on this land’s grass, a little bit middle of this land. Within the same borders, but in meaning of continent I spent my study years by the sea as well located 50°09’N, 05°05’W. Then also I might have developed some time of ‘growing up’ on other continent accross the ocean. and now I am from 62° 00’ N and 15° 00’ E , south and north up and down right and left around.
But of course as my early years where I spent developing my child’s vision has, of course, strong connection with me, I care and love the place where I walked barefoot the first steps… But does it give an idea I am from there? I am from here and now. Sorry.
Few days ago on Swedish hitchhiking page I wrote the story of just about ‘hitchhiking in north’.
I wanted to share with our hitchhiking ‘story’ in North of Sweden in february! Yes, winter hitchhiking!
as we laughed - “Three turtles hitchhiking to Jokkmokk!”
I’ve been around Sweden for some time now, but never really had gone to north yet(sorry), but then beginning of february there I was with a thumb up and sign in hands - on my way to Umeå. Yes, I went on the E4. Had only one day to get to North, and it went great(with many 50km stops inbetween haha)! Must say that without my hitchhiking lights I would have not survived by the road! (Thanks to all hitchhiking spirits!)
Here in svenska liftare I had read a lot not so positive comments about hitchhiking in/to north. So, it made a little to feel unsure with my belief in winter hitchhiking (few days before I hh to Umeå, I was hitchhiking down to Malmö from Stockholm, and oh boy! the hardest hitchhike ever, now comparing with experience in north.)
We were THREE hitchhikers with THREE BIG BACKPACKS (camping euqipment, warm clothing and camping food). From Stockholm to Umeå we split up (different days). But from Umeå till Jokkmokk we stayed together.
Umeå-Luleå(hertz car hehe)-Sanningslandet-Gävillare-JOKKMOKK!
We had people saying that with the space we three need it will be difficult… Well, KIND OF YES, but then.. actually NO. It was difficult only if we arrived at small town after work, when people had left going towards even smaller places we wanted to. And in the middle of nowhere between Luleå and Töre (E4/E10) we were hitchhiking for some time(empty road, big trucks mostly), but snickers saved our energy! At some point I thought suggesting splitting up, but it wasnt needed! North swedes are curious…More north we were, more talkative they were, but later on the trip at very small ‘village’, we expeirenced people hidding behind curtains,haha.. At place called Överkalix almost all locals were involved into the mission of finding a lift to three hitchhikers to Sanningslandet! Amazingly kind people! Maybe it’s may naive nature, but every driver we had I saw them as these very wanntohelpyou people less than scary look I get more down in south of sweden.
But hey it cant go all perfectly right. ONE ‘failure’ we did get! After camping and enjoying Sami winter market in Jokkmokk, and then camping adventure at Stora Sjöfallet nationalpark, we went to place next to the lake Sikträsket (nearest village Bastuträsk). And when me and my friend (now jsut two of us) were leaving going back to Umeå via Skellefteå, there WE GOT UNLUCKY! Haha. Three hour walking with any good result. And so as I was a bit getting ill (after cold swimming in the lake, camping nights, etc what can expect haha), I gave up(sorrzzz) and said to my friend there is no point with my state of mind hitchhiking. So, we stopped, boiled some snow,that I could drink buljon, and hey ho in the middle of nowhere turned out there is a BUS! So, YES, we did take the bus till Skellefteå, but from there a late night hitchhike to Umeå..Sweet!…Where we were welcomed with sauna,so, my winter adventure “cold” was killed!
Winter hitchhiking in NORTH IS possible, only if you are not camping then don’t stay on smaller roads, maybe in summer can go on these ones… But this road (Skråmträskvägen) where we got stuck has two stories.. Towards opposite direction a LOT cars going(I know a friend who htiched from there to Åre), but towards Skellefteå only a bus! Haha.
I dont know why people say its difficult in North. I didnt get that view, only my own mistakes of being slow and not putting mindset that there kind of need to be around the times when people travel to work and from (smaller places). Of course, in general it is less quiet, less cars, but from Umeå to Strycksele (rd 363), I was picked up towards there and back with the same driver,haha (5 days between). And if it is super cold winter, no one will let you “to die” outside, more north you go, more open, friendly people are. There are few tips I might tell you what locals have told me, but those are few things I shouldnt publish so public for privacy reasons. But as many of you have hitchhiked around the world, you know you meet people who invite you to stay with them. The same in North, but perhaps a little different way is needed to approach them.
All drivers we had, I remember them greatly. But I think the nicest two meetings were Töre-Överkalix, Gävillare-Jokkmokk!
One great suggestion I read here about winter hitchhiking - have extra cardboard with you, while hitchhike stand on it, warmer for feet,hihi. A very good suggestion!
So, if ever plan hitchhiking to north in winter. Don’t let the negative comments stop you. It’s nothing impossible. Of course prepare for cold time, have a good winter sleeping eqipment or great communication skills,and knowdledge with polite swedish words, and you’ll be alright! Just you be the curious one , not they should be! (I have collected a list of places to go and people to meet when Im there again other time, meeting them randomly by campfire or hiking,or somewhere!)
We think we will do “Hitchhiking to Jokkmokk vol2” again!
Thank you for reading.
And happy hitchhiking!
Here is our adventure in photos:
Sunset chilling with my dear, dear friend, and his new flatmate.